Its ended. Too soon perhaps. Or so it seems to me. I don't want to to hold on any longer. It seems like such a waste. We're all going to go to different places, lead different lives, and live our separate dreams. And maybe some day, we'll meet each other...meet and talk and laugh about every thing that was, and everything that could have been... Letting go won't seem so bad then, will it? I can imagine the scene - A coffee shop. Iced Tea and Cold Coffee and Coke (never Papsi, I know) and Chocolate Dough nuts and Us. Laughter. Grinning. And after a while, red eyes and wet cheeks. And then Laughing all over again. Some silence, maybe. And Thinking. I really hope we have a day like this. An entire day dedicated to our pasts. The past that we so readily forget. Trample. Crush. Looking back isn't a bad thing. I wish everyone would see that.

We spent all our money
On stupid things
But if I look back now
I’d probably give it all away
Just for one more day
One more day with you

Its over now. I know I'll move on. Make more friends. Maybe even better friends. Things will change. Success will come. Happiness may follow. And it just saddens me more... The ones I really want to share it with...they may not be with me... People who've been there for me through all the low parts of life, may not be there to share the highs. Terrifying thought.

There'll be others in the path
Others to count on, to share life with
But you, you who matter the most
You will be lost to me
I hope to God you find what you want
I hope you have who you need
I hope I'd love you always

{at first when we start loving someone, our greatest fear is that the one we love will stop loving us. once we overcome this fear and dread, we realise that our greatest fear is that we will stop loving them.}